大家很熟悉“洛丽塔”这三个字吧,它其实最早是出自俄裔美籍作家纳博科夫1955年的一部惊世小说,叙述的是一个中年男子与他的继女、一个未成年少女的恋爱故事。1997年它再次被搬上荧幕,故事是以死囚汉伯特的自白展开的。本文选取部分就是汉伯特在最后枪杀了带走洛丽塔的奎德后、自杀前的独白。他对洛丽塔无保留的怜爱和痛惜跃然纸上。
打开网页搜索“洛丽塔”,你可能会发现三分之一是关于Cosplay的,三分之一是关于色情的,恐怕只有三分之一是讲这本小说、及其改编电影相关的吧。前二者都是小说的引申和曲解而已。真心诚意、不带偏见地看过小说或电影的人会发现,这只是个爱情故事,一个没有归路的故事—男主人公爱的是那个他少年时深爱的、早夭的初恋女子的替身,在洛丽塔身上他看到的是一个未被俗世蒙尘的少女形象;只不过他一直没有长大,她反而长大了、落入俗尘—最后的悲剧不禁让人慨叹,到底是谁把谁耽误了、谁把谁给毁了?
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Humbert: She was Lo, plain Lo in the morning, standing four feet ten in one sock. She was Lola in 1)slacks, she was Dolly at school, she was Delores on the dotted line. In my arms she was always…Lolita, light of my life, fire of my 2)loins, my sin, my soul. Lolita.
I looked and looked at her, and ①I knew as clearly as I know that I will die, that I loved her more than anything I had ever seen or imagined on earth. She was only the dead-leaf echo of the 3)nymphet from long ago, but I loved her, this Lolita, pale and polluted and big with another man’s child. She could fade and wither; I didn’t care. I would still go mad with tenderness at the mere sight of her face.
What I heard then was the melody of children at play, nothing but that. And I knew that the hopelessly 4)poignant thing was not Lolita’s absence from my side, but the absence of her voice from that chorus.
汉勃特:早上她只是阿洛,穿着一只袜子、婷婷四尺十的阿洛;便服下她是洛拉;校园内她是黛丽;签名档里她是杜洛丽;在我怀里,她是永远的……洛丽塔,我的挚爱,我的欲焰,我的原罪,我的灵魂。洛丽塔。
我看着她,看了又看,我意识到,就像我知道必将会死去一样可以肯定的是,这一生一世里,我全心全意,最爱的就是她了。当日的如花少女,现在如枯叶回乡,苍白、混俗、臃肿,腹中怀着别人的骨肉,但我爱她。她可以褪色,可以萎谢;我都不在乎。我只看她的脸一眼,万般柔情,涌上心头。
当时我耳边响起的是一片儿童的欢笑声,别无它响。我知道最令我心灰意冷的,不是身边没有洛丽塔,而是那欢笑声中没有她。
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① I knew as clearly as I know that I will die, that I loved her… 我意识到,就像我知道必将会死去一样肯定的是我爱她……
I knew as clearly as I know that…: used to emphasize that the speaker is/was absolutely certain of sth.(用以表达说话者对某事很肯定)。例如:
I knew as clearly as I know that the sun will rise, that I had to marry him.
就像我明白太阳一定会升起一样,我当时就知道我得跟他结婚。